decisions, relaxing, and restoring

As many of you know I've been struggling, fighting, having meltdowns, seeing minor victories, disappointed, having a lousy summer. When I initially voiced my health issues I'll be honest - I didn't think it would be this hard. After over two months of being sick, switching medications, going to different doctors appointments, and changing my entire diet my body is just shot. On Friday I had a complete meltdown. I woke up, got out of bed and started getting ready for work - which is usually half the battle due to the aches, pains, and overwhelming nausea each morning. I doubled over in pain, sat down on the edge of the bed, and for the first time really just lost it. The waterworks began and thankfully Ian was awake and came to my side. He tucked me back into bed.

We planned a trip to visit my family and our friends on Long Island before we knew how sick I would be. We leave on Thursday and we're going to be there for a few days. I'm trying to save all the energy I have to make the trip enjoyable.

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As I was planning out the next few weeks for bedsidesign I had to make a choice: to blog or not to blog. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE blogging. I love creating a positive space that inspires me - and others. But, if I'm really honest I am absolutely spent. This summer has depleted me of all my vivaciousness and I'm left feeling really empty.

I decided that I'm going to take a break. I'm thrilled to have two awesome bloggers filling in Thursday and Friday of this week. They both have unique and interesting content and I can't wait to create a space for you to interact with them. After Friday I'm going to take a break from my series, blogging schedule, and use the time to relax. I may post some days, I may not. Instead of plowing through [as I did all summer] I want to refocus, plan, and move bedsidesign into a particular direction. This also takes time, energy, and inspiration. I hope you understand, and journey with me. I'll be back posting regularly on Monday, September 9th. Thanks for all of your support, and happy thoughts.

xo