Milestones / Memories / Momentum

December is always a special time of the year for me. December was the month that I married my best friend Ian. This December we celebrated our four year anniversary. I can't believe how the time flies.

December was also the month I launched bedsidesign - my design blog. December 2014 was my three year bedsidesign anniversary. I'm so surprised I stuck with it. There were (and still are) times where this blog has been quiet. But there have been other times where it has transformed my life, and moved me into the direction of finding my passion.

That brings me to...December 2014, my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY as a BUSINESS. You guys, 2014 was a roller coaster. From launching my business, to leaving my day job only a month later, moving out of Syracuse, and teaching calligraphy in multiple states - this year has changed me. I'm so honored and thankful for all of your support and encouragement.

bedsidesign calligraphy print

Things are about to get real:

I initially wanted to post this last year (are you thinking where the heck have I been?!). I decided to take some time off in December to relax, celebrate the holidays, and regroup for 2015. I did two-thirds of that. I rested. I celebrated. I mourned the loss of a friend (a beautifully creative soul) who was taken way too soon in a horrific car crash two days before Christmas. It rocked me.

How do I talk about calligraphy and pretty things when the world can be so ugly?

I've been wrestling with this question every day. Before I write up an Instagram caption, tweet or Facebook post I find myself sitting there thinking about how to convey what I'm thinking without ignoring that some days just suck. I'm trying to get back into the groove, and it is taking a bit longer than I had hoped. I'm clinging to the good days, the good moments where I feel inspired and want to inspire others.

Instead of picking a word for the year (I don't have anything against doing that for the record) I'm choosing to focus on progress. Whether that's completing all the days tasks before 12 pm or stretching it out. I'm just struggling with the momentum of it all.

So why am I sharing all of this? I want you to know that you're not alone. If you're exhausted, uninspired, sick, or feel like life can be really shitty I'm here to say yes, that's totally true. Just don't let that stop you from creating.